Matilda


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It’s Matilda Mae’s anniversary 3

How I wish I meant her birthday, or something sweet. Sadly two years ago today Matilda Mae passed away. She went to her bed and just didn’t wake up. For no reason at all she was just gone. The Angels took her. Matilda Mae was dead. Jennie (@Edspire) tweeted her daughter was dead. Every piece of me wanted the tweet I read to be wrong. Perhaps some sick sod has hacked Jennie’s twitter?  Maybe it’s some kind of dare to post something shocking?  Maybe I imagined reading it (I checked, it was still there). What if…. I was running out of excuses for why it was not true. It was true, Matilda Mae was gone. I felt so bad for Jennie and her family. She had reached out to the Internet at an awful time,  and I hope that the reaction helped somehow.


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#MMraffle The big skydive fundraiser raffle 58

Alrighty then, here goes. If you are unaware I am doing a charity skydive in memory of Matilda Mae you must be a new reader here, so Hiya and welcome. I mention it quite often on Twitter and Facebook that I am trying hard to fundraise. Sadly my donations haven’t taken off yet, so I’m trying something else.   UPDATED – I have changed the donatition link in the Rafflecopter form to support Claire as I have reached the £400 I needed to reach. Sadly Claire hasn’t yet. All entries made via my donation page are still valid of course. The only change is where future donations end up. Also the lovely Lucy has a super-fast last minute raffle going on, same principal, make a small donation and you could win something. We are all working as a team to try to help each other raise money. A MAHOOOOSIVE charity raffle. […]


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Sad update, #MMskydive 4

UPDATE… I AM SO SORRY AIRFIELD JUST SAID NO, I AM TOO HEAVY. I AM DISAPPOINTED AND EMBARRASSED AND SORRY. 2ND AUGUST STILL ON! ——— I was skydiving on 2nd August, that is big for me. Now I am also skydiving on Friday 9th May. I have so far raised £31 which whilst I am grateful for it is not nearly enough. My JustGiving page is here if you want to check the total. I wish I was good at fundraising. I wish I could raise thousands. You see today is Matilda Mae’s birthday – but instead of toys and teddies and hugs and cards her parents and family instead have to send ballons and bubbles towards heaven. Hoping that Matilda Mae sees them…


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WIN (ended)- Advertising space to help charity 16

OK, this isn’t likely to be something all my readers would be interested in but I am offering you the chance to win advertising space on my blog. Bloggers, small businesses’ and charities are my ideal advertisers. Why am I doing this? Feel free to have a read around my blog, and you’ll see I did this last year. I jumped from a plane last year for Matilda Mae, the late daughter of a friend. She was 9 months old and died from SIDS, she went to bed and never woke up. Reading about it got to me, I had to help, I had to do something. What can I do that is big enough? That can change things? That will help someone? That will mean something? So we skydived – jumping from the clouds, as near to heaven as you can be. I am terrified of heights, I properly cried – and […]


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A letter to Matilda Mae 9

Dearest Matilda Mae, I can hardly believe its been a year. A whole year. It does not make sense, there is no reason that you left. A year ago I begged that it was a mistake, that someone else had written the words your devoted Mummy tweeted. I prayed it was a lie, although it would have been a horrible unforgivable lie I so wanted it to be a lie. I needed and wanted for it to be a mistake so badly. How could a happy, smiley, healthy girl be gone forever?? As a Mum myself I grieved with your family. That might sound odd as I never met you Tilda, but I knew who you were, I had seen your smiley photos and knew about your Mummy’s blog. You were like a girl at playgroup, the online equivalent of a neighbours child if you like. You didn’t know me, […]


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I am Jumping again – #MMskydive2014 10

I cried and screamed last time, but I have signed up to do it again. Hayley didn’t even force me 😉 In August we will be skydiving for Matilda Mae, time may pass, but we have not forgotten. We will not let Tilda be forgotten. All money raised is going to the Lullaby Trust, as it did last year, and I truly hope our crazy fundraising has helped to save a little life or maybe a few? So today I opened a new JustGiving page, and am after your support, donations or even just your tweets? There is a team page, Team Matilda 2014. There is not much info yet on the pages, as we are being added to the team page one at a time as each member makes a new page. Bare with us, or pop back next week to see whose in? The lullaby trust try to prevent […]


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Beauty And Calm For A Moment #MMskydive 8

Last night I read something and I just have to reply! GhostWriterMummy – Such Great Heights Susanne, aka GhostWriterMummy was part of Team Matilda Mae and skydived with me at the weekend. When she landed she spoke of a rainbow, a sign, something perfect in the sky. I hadn’t seen a rainbow, I felt Suz was really lucky, I wished I had seen a rainbow! But to me a rainbow is an arch, it wasn’t until I read her post about it that I realised we had seen the same. After my panic attack in “free fall” we were floating down in the parachute. Still just above the clouds, the clouds seemed like the floor at this point, a carpet of pure white cotton candy.


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I Did It! 5

Ok, I’m ok! I did it, I said I would do it. I jumped from a plane, at 13,000 feet! Yes I screamed, yes I cried, yes I swore like a solider, but I’m proud of me. I did it for charity and today the sponsorships increased in a lovely way. Thank you all. Thank you to the lovely people that donated, thank you to those that made #MMskydive trend on twitter, thank you to the other bloggers, and thank you anyone I’ve missed.