Yesterday I went to #Cybher. A conference for women bloggers. I stayed over night at my Mum’s near Heathrow and got the train and tube in to central London. This was a big thing for me, I don’t go out alone often.
On the way I was really excited, and a bit nervous, thinking I’d get lost and would the other bloggers like me? As it goes I got there nearly on time, and there were still some free handbags left! All the purple patterned ones had gone, there was fluorescent yellow or orange left. So I decided I would choose the yellow as it’s like cycling high visibility clothing. More me than neon orange!
I felt lost then, I couldn’t see anyone I knew. I was getting very stressed and considered walking out, was not sure where to go or what I was meant to do. Just stood there. Then I noticed some of the ladies were walking towards a big door…
I followed and the first face I see is Jax, then Joy. Thank goodness, familiar folks! I sat and listened to Sian do the welcome speech bit and listened to a few other sessions. I’ll be honest, I got bored, very bored! I wandered off and found the home barn section downstairs, and I now know how to crochet! I was in the home barn area for over an hour, and met Lizzie at last. See Claire‘s blog for some fab photos of @homebarn. I didn’t really do photos, the camera on my phone is pretty awful with indoor lighting conditions. After a mooch about I met Claire, the other Claire and Lili! Oh my how beautiful is Lili?
I’m not sure I learnt much, except I learned who I should talk with and who I’m not really feeling the community spirit from. I also learnt that I’m really a whole lot taller than I thought! I felt some of us were blanked almost as groups of buddies became clear, and chatted so much it really was a bit like I had gate-crashed someone else’s party at the “cocktail bar”. I felt an outsider, isolated, lonely. And I hate people photoing my face, I am so self conscious. So the few people I did meet I do not have photos of them with me.
I wish I could talk to people more easily, but wherever I go I find myself in the corner. I’ve heard that tots100 blogger summits are likely to suit my shy personality more as it’s not as busy.